I Am At Peace With Myself

As a human being, I know we are constantly taking on different challenges so that we can learn new life lessons. For the past month, my life lesson is to be at peace with myself.

Family standards, society standards, and what we consume on social media are constantly putting us in fight or fright mode. When I start to compare myself with other people or listen to what people think I should do (not what I should do for myself), I start to doubt myself.

My fight or fright mode kicks in when I start to see challenges in my financial situation. The moment this mode starts to kick in, I start to wonder if what my family tells me is correct. Then I start to look at my own resume and see there is nothing out there that matches my skillset. I have worked on different things for the past 12 years, but when I look at the job market, it seems I don’t belong to any groups. This causes me a lot of anxiety because I feel I am not part of society. I am just an outsider with skills no one would want. This self-sabotage mindset slowly invades my mental health, and I start to believe I am not worthy to have anything good in life.

I have been watching a lot of self-development videos lately and I am particularly drawn to the teachings by Joe Dispenza and Bruce Lipton. As Bruce mentioned in many of his teachings, I believe I have to rewrite some of the software in my subconscious.

First of all, I have to come to terms with who I am and what kind of values I have. If the outside world cannot offer what I like, then I must continue to create what I believe will work for me. Looking at all the successful people’s life paths (Steve Jobs and Taylor Swift for example), I see that they are also outsiders. Instead of playing the victim role, they create their own paths by continuing to do what they love. Passion is the key to unlocking the potential successful future.

Even though I am in a little rocky situation, perhaps because I am finally at peace with myself, I feel so calm. I have surrendered to controlling things to happen and letting everything occur naturally. I like how flowers always blossom beautifully without knowing they would die after. This is a lesson I should learn from them: blossom like there is no tomorrow and do not try to figure out what’s going on next. All I can do right now is focus on myself and be at peace with my life.

Always remember to be gentle to myself. I am capable of doing great things. Let the universe show me the path.