I don’t feel comfortable writing this, but I believe it is a necessary step for me to get over what’s going on in life.
Recently I have been dealing with a lot of self-doubts and started to question my own ability. Some of the questions I have included:
- Am I doing the right things?
- Have I done my best?
- Are there any other things I can do to make things better?
- Should I be chasing people for opportunities?
- Why are things not working out the way I wanted them to be?
And the one I ask myself the most is…
WHERE IS MY TRIBE?
I know, this may sound so silly since I have a good following. However, when insecurity hits, my mind will start to wander in the dark side.
Being a community leader is fun but there are also a lot of challenges. I understand artists are not necessarily good at expressing themselves with words but sometimes I get frustrated when people don’t interact with me on IG story polls or IG Live. Without those interactions, I don’t really know which direction this community should be heading to or what I should create to benefit the community. Sometimes I just wanted to shut this community down and move on because I don’t even know if I am doing the right thing.
I can tell you that I have hit a few walls during this fashion week. There were a few exciting things I wanted to do but due to the lack of response and the war, I have to scrap them.
I still have a passion for this community but honestly, I am feeling lost.
Perhaps Draw A Dot should just be an art account that only features artworks and forget about the community aspect. Perhaps I should just focus on the Patreon group and ignore the followers on Instagram from now on.
Maybe someone can give me suggestions on where Draw A Dot should be heading next.